I'm starting to think of changing my life. Even though school is stopping me from being a better person. I will try to study, so I can just get rid of most of my subjects, at least until the winter holidays. I mean a lot of things scares me, but I know that I'm not the only one. I really hope that the time after school will be so much better. I will try to make it that way. I just feel good and I know it will pass, so I'm just trying to embrace it and I'm trying not to think about negative stuff. Everything will be okay, and I will make my best. You just don't know for how long I didn't felt POSITIVE. I just want to try new stuff and just to step out of this shell. I mean that is going to be a long process, but at least I will know I am doing stuff. If anyone reads this can you please, please, please recommend me some stuff to do in this autumn/winter time? Please, I just hope that someone read this.